Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Why can't it just be over?

I want so badly for him to be out of my life. I just can't deal with his bull shit emotionally. All he does is hurts me but I'm not the type of person to say no so what can I do when he says he needs my friendship, that everyone has left him I'm all he has left and he doesn't even realize that doesn't even have me? I want nothing to do with him I want so badly for him to fade into my past. It's not the I hate him I don't I just cant deal with it anymore I've wasted almost three years on his bullshit and it's left me with nothing but a bad taste in my mouth there is so much bad it's hard to remember the good. -_-

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Dear Lady Love,

I miss you every day your not here with us getting into trouble. Life isn't as sunny with out you. I try to be strong and I'm trying to be the best friend I can be for Rachel and your family who I consider my own. I love you all do much I can't picture my life with out the Campbell's in it. I hope with all my heart you can hear me in my dreams and prayers and I hope they keep you close to us. I love you lady every time I hear certain songs I hear you reaching out letting me know your there watching over us. I wanted to post this poem. I had such a hard time reading it at your funeral but it felt like it was what you wanted us to know.

The Final Flight
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free, I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took his hand when I heard his call, I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day, To laugh, to love, to work, to play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way, I've found that peace at the end of the day.
If my parting has left a void, Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah, yes, these things too I will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow, I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My Life's been full, I savoured much, Good friends, good times, a loved one' touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me, God wanted me now, He set me free.

I hope your in your happy place and I hope it is beyond beautiful and peaceful.

Can you please watch over David he could really use a guardian angel. I constantly worry that I'm going to lose him. I couldn't handle it.

I hope you can hear the music cheech and I play when we come and see you. It's nice to listen to music and talk about the good times.
I love you lady forever and always

My life as of 2012

I haven't used this blog in awhile and looking back at my passed posts I've realized I've matured a lot and I'm very glad I have my life since I graduated high school as had its ups and it's downs I've learned and grown from it. This year so far has been crazy and very hard I'm try to stay strong and take it day by day thats all you can do. Keep on keeping on. Idk what else too say but that I'm going to start blogging more so yeah till next time.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Dear dramatic bitch,

GET OVER YOURSELF! You really are an over dramatic bitch and you honestly need to move on with your life because both of your "ex-best friends" have. nee neer nee neer! I know im acting like a child right now but I dont really care.
Despise always,

Friday, June 22, 2007


GAHHH!!! you go out with someone for two days and you get compare/called to/ an egotistical jerk! people need to mind there own business and stay out of other people's. And curtin people need to stop being so fucking pessamistic it's really pissing me off if i want to talk to you ill fucking talk to you other wise leave me the hell alone. and no i dont like you like that i just want to be friends isnt that good enough for you? why cant i make you happy? anything and everything i do makes you depressed maybe you should get that checked out you bi-polar son of a bitch! if i dont want to be in a relationship with you just except it there are other prefectly good women out there and i dont there are one that are better looking then me.

*sigh* ive had a bad week. first Tom comparing me to Chase because I broke up with kyle over a fucking texted message so that was a bad move on my part so sue me! Tom needs to mind his business. And then there is kyle I love that boy but sometimes he makes me want to rip off his little pessamistic balls and shove them down his throat. he was to talk to me and just because i told him it probly wouldnt be right away because ive got alot of shit i need to do he atomaticlly thinks it's never going to happen and that the fucking world is goin to come to end. God forrbid i dont talk to him or his life will go to shit.

that was a good rant i feel some what better now.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

I gave my childhood away, there is no turning back now. I forever have to live with my mistakes.

I've done something terribly stupid. It is something I forever will regret. Somwthing that could ruin my life and my body. It's supposed to be beautiful, passionate, and loving. Shared to symbolize love and companionship. It shouldnt be done out of lust and frustration. This undoable mistake could turn my life upside down in little less than a year. It can make or take lives.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

I've got a little secret....

I've got a little secret and I will never tell... It's mine to keep forever and never, never tell. I've promised to keep it and keep it I shall.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007


hehehe Jessy thought someone was getting raped but it was only little old me saying hi.lmao