Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Why can't it just be over?

I want so badly for him to be out of my life. I just can't deal with his bull shit emotionally. All he does is hurts me but I'm not the type of person to say no so what can I do when he says he needs my friendship, that everyone has left him I'm all he has left and he doesn't even realize that doesn't even have me? I want nothing to do with him I want so badly for him to fade into my past. It's not the I hate him I don't I just cant deal with it anymore I've wasted almost three years on his bullshit and it's left me with nothing but a bad taste in my mouth there is so much bad it's hard to remember the good. -_-

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Dear Lady Love,

I miss you every day your not here with us getting into trouble. Life isn't as sunny with out you. I try to be strong and I'm trying to be the best friend I can be for Rachel and your family who I consider my own. I love you all do much I can't picture my life with out the Campbell's in it. I hope with all my heart you can hear me in my dreams and prayers and I hope they keep you close to us. I love you lady every time I hear certain songs I hear you reaching out letting me know your there watching over us. I wanted to post this poem. I had such a hard time reading it at your funeral but it felt like it was what you wanted us to know.

The Final Flight
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free, I'm following the path God laid for me.
I took his hand when I heard his call, I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day, To laugh, to love, to work, to play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way, I've found that peace at the end of the day.
If my parting has left a void, Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss, Ah, yes, these things too I will miss.
Be not burdened with times of sorrow, I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My Life's been full, I savoured much, Good friends, good times, a loved one' touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief, Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your heart and share with me, God wanted me now, He set me free.

I hope your in your happy place and I hope it is beyond beautiful and peaceful.

Can you please watch over David he could really use a guardian angel. I constantly worry that I'm going to lose him. I couldn't handle it.

I hope you can hear the music cheech and I play when we come and see you. It's nice to listen to music and talk about the good times.
I love you lady forever and always

My life as of 2012

I haven't used this blog in awhile and looking back at my passed posts I've realized I've matured a lot and I'm very glad I have my life since I graduated high school as had its ups and it's downs I've learned and grown from it. This year so far has been crazy and very hard I'm try to stay strong and take it day by day thats all you can do. Keep on keeping on. Idk what else too say but that I'm going to start blogging more so yeah till next time.