Trust is a very strong word...

Trust is a very storng word to be using so freely. When I told him I trusted him I thought I ment it, but maybe I should have thought about it a bit more.

Fuck how could I be so dumb

After I was in a deep chat with Aj via messanger monday night I was told that I still had a chance with him. But after reading Jessy's last post( love you!) thingz are rather confusing.
FUCK! My brain hurts, to much to think about oh well. I should have knowen though. AJ is a pathilogical flirt. and I knew he liked Jessy, I KNEW! I can only blam myself for what has happened.

I made it!

I made it in Macbeth! That makes me happy. Im playing the Doctor.

umm...ok

So about my last blog i was in a akward mood so ignore it

Is it wrong?

Is it wrong to be atracted to a shopmore? Because I am... his name is Austin he is so freakin cute, and he's nice, and he as a great personality. i have yet to find a flaw in him basically he's perfect.

Overworked...

Im so tired, sick, and stressed out.
I know im on the verge of a complete and udder break down im just waiting for it to happen. so it can be over and done with so i can get back to my non important life. it's really wearing me out i cant sleep I've hardly been eating and when i do eat it makes my stomach hurt.
I just need some where to vent my emotion and then ill be fine.

Belly Fat...

Belly fat is like going to Vegas once you get over the hill you can see the Strandalshpere.

Im so tired!

With Les Mis starting soon I haven't been able to get very much sleep and it's starting to catch up with me. I think im going to go crazy. hehehehe.....hehe..ha...h.....a......h................a.....yep Im crazy oh well.

Help!

So i found out today that Tom broke up with Sheraya and Im worried about the both of them because Tom is drowning his sarrows in food and Sheaya doesnt understand why Tom would break up with her and she so depressed about it she;s cutting herself Ive been through the whole causing yourself pain to make your self fell better thing and i know what its like.
They both is want each other. how can i help them both with out causing them more pain?

WHY CAN'T IT ALL BE OVER?

Im starting to feel the stress of Les Mis big time.
Today I realized we have 11 days before we have to have ALL of the costumes done.
And im freaking out because half our cast is flaking out and we are only about half way in where we need to be with costumes. Fuck! And on top of it all I have inductions and SASTS. But I can let anyone know im stressed out i have to keep my cool for the sake of my position and for the cast and for Criman. I cant let Criman down he'd hate my for it. I think everyone would. A big part of this musical depends on me and if I fail everyone is going to hate me for it.
ANGER, FRUSTATION, FUCK!

To help him I'll repair my tortured heart.

I've desided to forget my feelings for Casey, our friendship is more important then my secret passion towards him. But I fear for him, yesterday I found out that his so called "girlfriend" is entertanining his emotions for the time being and then when she feels the time is right she's going to break him. I don't think it will be a pretty sight.
So now I ask what do I do? Should I talk to him about it?
He's so stubbor. I don't want him to get angery with me.
Should I talk to her about it?
I can't allow her to hurt him.
Help!

My heart just got ripped out!

Ok i dont mean to sound like a complete emo but anywoos I was talking to Casey Price on msn and I find out that he's going out with my friend Kori. at the exact moment he told me I felt like my heart got ripped violently out of my chest, ripped in two, and smashed into a wall.
"I thought I told" my ass you thought you told me. you just wanted to see my look like a cpomplete idiot. Didn't you you son of a bitch!?
I didn't mean that. Yes I did. ok I did but i ment it with love.
ARRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRR!!!! MEN!

Bla...Bla.. Bla

yeah so im bloging along when all of the sudden i forget what i was blogging about so it must have not been that important. oh well whatever.

FUCK HIM!

why do some guys have to be just dicks?
so i found out this certain guy in the in drama liked want to date me but he wopnt ask me out because i wont sleep with him. what a fuck head.

Yay for Sakespeare

Sa=hakespeare kicked ass it was so much fun.

I'm so excited!

Yay we leave for Shakespeare comp. tomarrow. I cant believe its finally here. I'm kind of nervous tho . But what the heck it will still be fun. I hope Jessika doesn't bring "Jack" tho becuase if Criman found out we would all get f**ked.

Does anyone care?

I dont even think anyone cares. I feel like im being left out of the loop. I thought things would change for the better when my friend moved back from Cali. but not things changed at all. I still I have no one to talk. hecne the creation of this blog. I wish I knew what my peers opinions about me were then it might be easier to determine what to do with my life.